Dwindling Away AM I?
That is A real question. If you've been keeping up with my blog, (which even I have neglected), this project was never seen as an easy one.
Let Me Tell You I am down to two offical helpers and they are still helping because they are my daughters. Burn Out is really easy when taking on any project, and I think I've hit my point.
Like most Humans I like INSTANT Gratification, A few months shouldn't be difficult.
What runs thru my mind are the soliders who have been placed all over the world, they have to stay away from their comforts of their ideal reality until told they can go home; just to be sent back out. Those that have been mis-placed with no choice but to contiune on.
They are doing their jobs for the same reason I had taken on this job. Wanting to protect.
Every day I am covered in shit, my home is covered in shit and it's really starting to get to me.
Not just the shit, but the finanical shit as well.
As I woke up this morning, there was no electric in the house, our funds had run out sometime in the night, So I borrowed $15 from my daughter to run down to the closest M-Power location and got the power back on.
I get home, feed all the cats which you would think only requires the pouring of the food, but with kittens, it takes the blender, and a bath for each of them afterwards.
We took back a mom cat that was given to another lady to have her babies, she is done weaning her babies and came home. Now she is in heat and we have to get her fixed ASAP! All the vouchers I do have are for 3 month olds, which means I have to run down to the pound to get her a voucher which will arrive in a month from now.
Until her voucher comes, I have to make sure she does not get outside and get pregnant again.
It's 80$ to get a female fixed without the voucher.
Long story short, not only is there the feedings, baths, containing locating and keeping the babies all safe, there is also the same activities for the in heat momma cat.
and my poor house, kids and dogs.
I have to get my house cleared out of the kittens and cats so that I can contiune on with my inital goal in the TNR program. I am really burnt out.
Then A good friend of mine, who has had faith in me from the beginning jumped online and sent me the link to one of the blogs she wrote about spider hunting.
I read this blog, and I feel that it is a direct message to me from the Heavens. Kelley Reinforce!
Don't give up, reinforce your web!
http://saenzmom.blogspot.com/2010/06/web-hunting-followup.htmlSo this I have to do, the journey is not over yet. I have to keep going.
Even though I cannot afford it, I have to go out and buy a cheap $30 printer to have the ink.
Ink costs a hell of a lot of money! It is cheaper just to add another printer to my house.
I will get that printer, another bag of cat food and milk today. I will print up our flyers again and start the walking. It is way to hot to do a yardsale As I realized a few weekends ago.
And this weekend we made about $20 with ebay auctions.
I will list more items on ebay and lower all the prices to everything in my online shop.
Get the word out by sending out bulk flyers to a few girlfriends in other states with my blogsite and cotton puff website on the flyers and hope that the funding comes in.
(This will help with the cleaning and feeding of the kittens until they are found homes for)
I just never really realized what I was getting myself into, the constant of it all, not to mention the eye infections of the kittens that is running rampant in the house.
So yes, I will reinforce my efforts and not give up.
Thank you Mal for thinking of me, You all have no idea how much support runs to me, just by someone else supporting my emotional frustrations of it all.